Inspiration
Last night I went to a healing mass. First, I didn’t want to go. I wanted to beg my mom to stay home. Well… good thing I didn’t. In the past 18 years, this mass last night was probably the best mass I’ve ever attended. The priest gave the best sermon I’ve ever heard in my life. I listened to every single word that came out of his mouth, and took it to the heart. I was so caught up in the moment. It was the most amazing thing I’ve ever heard. Now this priest wasn’t just any ordinary priest. He supposedly “heals” people when he prays over them. Crazy right? Well, that’s what I thought when he was telling us his stories. Stories about how some people magically lose their sickness after this priest touches them and prays with them. Believe it or not… It’s true. He prayed over every single person that attended the mass. It was maybe a 2 hour wait ‘till it was my turn, but once I got up there and he touched my head… I felt something. I truly cannot explain the feeling I felt, but I felt something rush through my body. I’m not delusional. It happened. I didn’t pray for the healing of myself. I prayed for my dad. And ever since… my dad has been more alert, and I can slowly see the progress of recovery again in him. Is it magic that he does? Is it a miracle what he can do? — Nope. It’s just faith and prayer, that’s all.
More often, I just really hate my life and think I’m a complete failure. I don’t know why, but when I’m alone in a room.. my thoughts are just rushing through my brain. And I become one emo girl. But it’s moments like these, times like this that I experienced last night where I realize what life is about. But it’s not that easy….
Honestly no one knows the life I live. I’m pretty darn good at hiding my issues and problems, putting up a front, and pretending everything’s okay. I would like someone to be in my shoes for a day and see how they take it. I’m not one to brag about how horrible my life is so I can get attention, or how wonderful my life is so people can be jealous of me. Not at all. I just want to live and be happy. And I’m working on it. Yesterday night just made life a whole lot better. <3
